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I am so glad I earned 16 activity points yesterday. Becasue let me tell you, except for breakfast and and orange at lunch I did not eat healthy at all (unless you count Mental health). My back has been hurting that last couple days and needless to say I didn't really feel like standing in the kitchen cooking with last night or tonight. So pizza last night and a burger tonight. And just incase anyone is curious, no i did not hurt my back earning those 16 activity points. My back hurt yesterday morning, felt better in the afternoon so I went to Zumba and then hurts again today.

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